40 down, none to go!

Where to start, where to start.. First off i'd like to just say that this journey has really opened my eyes, my heart, my soul up to receive so much more of God. I see God in my daily life more than I have seen before. I am able to openly be generous, openly care for others before myself, and just to see God in everything I do. I praise God for so much that I have become. Although 40 days may seem short but taking the time out of your day to do something worthwhile can really change your perspective on life. Before I saw my life as just a repetitive notion i had to go through daily.. nothing exciting, no change, etc. But now that I am able to show God's love throughout my day and share His greatness, i find that it's made me so much more open-minded. Now i find myself actually CRINGING to words/sentences that were only said to hurt others or to just poke fun.

Amen to Ann. I look forward to this 40 day journey to being a yearly thing, maybe even semester thing. May God show me more of Himself even AFTER this journey. Without Him, we, as humans, are powerless.

Today as my celebration of the end of this amazing journey, I ordered pizza for everyone who stayed after bible study today. I don't want to be known as the girl who "doesn't usually do this" or the girl who's "cheap". I want to be known as the girl who is openly generous no matter what. For "God provides" (quoting Ann/Bible).

Feeling evermore so faithful and hopeful for the future,
tina

day forty

oh man...writing this post is so unbelievably sad and exciting at the same time. i'm sad because this has been such a wonderful journey, God has shown me so much stuff during this journey, He has led me to brokenness and healed me, He has build relationships and restore His throne in my life. on the other hand, i'm so excited as i exit this 40-day spiritual journey because i have this boldness and renewed strength that just urges me to go into the world and glorify God in all that i do. one thing that has proved more certain than ever before, that i want to follow God in my life, seek Him with all my heart, my soul, and my strength, and there's no turning back. i wait eagerly and patiently for the day He comes back and redeems His people. i believe in eternity and long to spend it with Him. "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26

lastly, my "final" act of love for this journey is making an offering. i received a check for my birthday a month ago, and although i am very thankful, i thought this gift could be used for something greater, instead of just keeping it to myself. returning the check would be kind of pointless and snobby of me (haha!), so i've been looking for opportunities to give this money for a good purpose. i don't want to go into details here, but i found two opportunities that i felt led to contribute. so, praise God, and may He use this money for His eternal purpose! may i always not hold back on offering, because i know that i don't need anything, for my God will always provide :)

i leave this 40-day spiritual journey with a heart that is passionately burning for Christ and what He is about to do in the coming days, months, years....

above all, to God be the glory forever and ever,

ann

p.s. let's make this an annual thing and have more people join! excited for 40-day spiritual journey 2011 :)

day thirty-nine

sorry for being a day late! yesterday went by really fast, because i was trying to get work done and sleep to prepare for the big night (campus house of prayer night watch 12AM-6AM).

last night was sooooo amazingly good!! we worshiped, declared God's promises openly, confessed our sins, sought His presence, prayed for the campus, prayed for the nations (especially those that have undergone earthquakes in the previous months), prayed for each other, and just shared about God. overall, we had no problems staying awake! we also never ran out of things to do because the Holy Spirit just led us during that six hours! the presence of God was so thick and saturated that you can't help but just worship Him continuously!

i came home, slept for about 2 hours, went to class for 2 hours, came back home and slept for another 2 hours. i'm very thankful that i'm able to stay awake for the day and get some things done!

today's act of love was going to the grocery store and buying things for my roommate, who is going out of town this weekend. we've been running short of vegetables, so i went to heb and bought some stuff for both of us! also, on the way home, there was a guy chasing after the bus, and he was carrying some luggages. he missed the bus barely, and he looked like he was crying...this whole thing i didn't see, because i was sitting with my back facing the window. tommy, who was sitting across from me, told me, and my first impulse was to pray for him. i have no idea who he is or his situation, but i just felt like blessing his day with a prayer. i don't know what he's going through, but i pray that God will bring peace into his life and pray for his trip today.

ahh...just want to seek God all the days of my life,

ann

39 down, 1 to go!

Today was a GREAT day. At school, at work, at home, everywhere! I really felt pure joy in my heart. I was completely satisfied with my life and I don't think i complained much at all today! Work was great, i was high spirited and everyone else could see that off of me and in return, i received their happiness!

I offered a pear to my friend today before going into work! I had two pears cleaned and ready to eat at work when i decided to offer my friend one! She previously brought chips for me and i decided to give her one! Least i could do for such a great friend.

Prayer meeting last night was good. Although some times i feel like it gets harder and harder to receive God's presence and annointings as before. Why is that God? How come i feel so distant from you when we are at prayer meetings? Yes there are times during the meetings that i completely feel in your presence but other times like when i'm discussing certain topics, it's hard for me to see You.. God please take this uncertainty away and turn it into faith and hope.

And as this journey ends, with my goal being to know what i want to do, i will take one day's challenges per day, and tomorrow will worry about itself. I'm going to go towards elementary education, where my heart is 'right now', and if this isn't right for me, I know God will move me where He wants :)

with Love,
tina

day thirty-eight

this morning, i brought some breakfast items to school and shared some with my friend, who didn't eat breakfast :)

in the evening, my friend and i were walking to Subway for dinner, and this guy approached us and asked if we had spare change for some food...we got scared and said no.

i wonder if i had done wrong. if my friend wasn't with me, maybe i would have faithfully given him some money. i don't know though...because i just remember being really scared.

i pray that God has His plans for me in the right timing, and when it comes, i will completely abandon myself to His will.

during my prayer time at the campus house of prayer today, i started prophetic worship again. it's been so long, and i feel so new and unexperienced at it! in my spiritual walk with God right now, i just feel like a child all over again, which is very good in a way because all i want to do is be silent and listen to Him, close my eyes and feel His touch, still myself and enjoy His presence.

still very tired,

ann

38 down, 2 to go!

This journey is coming to an end...

I first would to repent of my sins tonight.. I was supposed to be fasting tonight, every Wednesday night until this journey ends, but tonight I took into temptation and ate. I know this is not good.. I'm sorry God for being so weak and giving into the temptation of food so easily..

Today i did a lot of complimenting! I complimented my friend, telling her that she looked very skinny today :) She was very vvery happy to have heard that! i also told my co-worker that i liked the dress she was wearing. I learned that if i make someone's day, even just my a small little sentence, it can help make my day! A compliment goes a long way :) Just like how i like receiving compliments, i would also like to give others this happiness too!

still hungry,
tina

37 down, 3 to go!

First of all, i just have to say that i LOVE reading ann's posts every day. Whenever i'm not feeling spiritually adequate, i can just read her blog and feel fired up for God. Why go to a conference when you have ann?! :) i love you, ann!

My act of love actually just came to me a few seconds ago! Well i went to it.. haha. I had washed clothes earlier today and completely forgot about them being in the washer still! I just reminded my mom that there were clothes, wanting her to dry them.. But just now she said "okay i'm going to go dry the clothes" and i decided to do it for her instead. whenever i think of her doing work for me, i just get up and do them myself. It's usually really hard for me to do things for other people when they ask me to, but if my mom is the one asking, i don't hesitate 'much' and get up and do it.

Praise God for letting me be able to honor and obey my parents.

Prayer meeting is tomorrow night and asking for God's presence,
tina