i'm broken before God.
i never realized what an awful christian i've been.
on the outside, i feel wonderful: i worship, i write songs, i love others, i pray, i read the bible and have a christ-like life. but i never really try to love Jesus. i missed the simplicity of loving who He is.
on the inside, sin fills me up. my walk with God has been crippled by my judgement of others, my lack of commitment, my hypocrisy, my selfishness, my doubt, my pride, and my stubbornness. i look at myself, and i am disgusted with the christian i claim to be. i find myself constantly comparing with others, seeking approval and praise from men. i use my gifts for the wrong reason, i pride my achievements, i gather success in my terms.
someone once said, "stop trying to be perfect, because it's stopping God's grace from coming to you." i realized i don't have control over my life. right now, i feel like i've lost everything i've once gained.
thank God that in the last ten days of this journey, God has broken my heart to see who i really am.
amazing grace,
ann
1 comments:
God sees what a true and committed heart you have and i'm sure He wants to use this. Wait for his timing. Thank you for being so willing to open up and share your sins and weaknesses to us so that God can fill you anew.
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